Love Letter to a Friend
My Dear Friend,
I hope this letter finds you well. That seems to be the case from the channels of social media that were left in tact. I write to you to say a few things that I’m not sure I’ll ever get to say to your face. Should you read this, I hope you’ll ponder the words below.
First of all, I breached your confidence and for that I am truly and horribly sorry. At that time, it didn’t seem like such a thing but hearing your reaction told me otherwise. Part of me feels that I cannot say “I’m sorry” enough to atone for what was done. Yet, here I am. I’m truly sorry. I could expound on this for hours, but I believe the point has been conveyed.
I miss our adventures. Places we saw, experiences we witnessed. It was truly a wonderful time of my life when we sought out good times together. I miss that. Experiencing the world with a good friend reminded me how precious life is and how much it is worth to really live.
You completely vanished, and that hurt. One day, no response. Messages sent, read, and left alone. For a while, I felt that perhaps I had done something to warrant such a response, but in time my view changed. No person deserves to be hurt. I hurt you, but that does not justify dealing out pain in return. I believe love, forgiveness and reconciliation are the only ways to move forward and let go of such feelings as remorse, regret, anger, and the like. I had to let go. I forgive you. I pray you can forgive me.
You have every reason to never speak to me again. Part of me wishes that we could talk and just find out what went wrong. Yet, when I realized that I wanted closure on my terms, I came to the conclusion that I can find closure in other ways. Regardless, I felt compelled to write this to you. A part of me deeply misses our time together and the friendship we had.
Should a time come and our lives cross once more, please know my door is always open to you. A glass of wine waiting always. I just miss you and life isn’t nearly as fun without a fellow compatriot to get into trouble with. Thanks for some really awesome memories and the time you gave our friendship. I love you my friend. I hope life gives you all you ever wanted and so much more.
Until next time,
Hal
